Unwanted

I’m sick.

Early this morning, I checked my temperature and im already 38 degree C. Still, I took a bath, sipped Sopas for breakfast, then head to the office.

When got here, it’s still the same feeling.. feeling of anxiety, uneasiness, restlessness, discomfort and weakness. I didn’t pay attention to what I was feeling not until now.

I can’t hardly breathe and speak. I am always gasping for air. I am running out of air. I am feeling so weak.

At the same time that I am experiencing all this, the person that I care about makes me feel so unwanted. Not looking my way when I am near, casting me off like a fly wandering around.

It hurts.

My inside and out.

Only adds to my discomfort.